Is it bad

I had everything I wanted to say written and what happened it all got erased, I don't know how but it did, and now my mind is clear. I know I asked is it bad if you dread the day ending because it means the beggining of a new one? And the beginning of that new one isn't the adventure it's supposed to be, it's an empty group of mixed up problems. You may be asking what am I rambling about? It's all the problems that I see laid before me, the dreams never fullfilled and not able to make happen now. Why? Because I'm not what I wanted to be, I'm sitting in Utah at a desk instead of on the stage that I love so much. Stability got in the way of the countless dreams I once had, the love of music and art. I can't write, I can't sing good enough, I can't act as good as I wanted. What makes people decide they can ruin your chances at their dreams? Once upon a time I wouldn't let people bother me, what changed what made me so rough around the edges? Who am I, why am I different, where did this outside shell come from, why am I someone other than who I want to be? It's time to open the door of the mind and change that person to the happy go lucky I used to be!